Karmacoma
Yes, I said I was done yesterday. And I was. And then life decided I needed a second helping of karmic good cheer.
Part 1
Several weeks ago, LeeAnn invited me out to dinner, somewhat unexpectedly. I went, worried about ulterior motives, I have to admit. I was pleasantly surprised (surprised being a bit of an understatement) that her motivation was that some old baggage had been weighing on her, and she wanted to apologize for my hurt feelings last year.
That had never happened to me before, and, quite frankly, I wasn't sure how to react.
I think I said something stupid, like "you're welcome." I don't remember.
Part 2
Confession: I had sent Jennifer an email yesterday, after I found her on the website. I figured that saying "Hi" was the least I could do, right? I didn't expect anything back anyway — heck, even some of my best friends in high school never wrote back.
Result: She wrote back today. Again an understatement. Yet another startling apology, and this one after over 4 years (by my calculations — yeah, 1, 2, 3, 4 fingers). I wasn't sure what to say this time, either, but at least in writing you can think about things before you say them.
Now what? Same story as yesterday, I guess. What else is there to do but just watch and see what happens? All this doesn't really mean anything going forward, but it definitely changes my outlook on things.
Anyway, that all makes up for the past just fine, but it's time to change my future (and until I find the karma bank where I can cash this stuff in, it doesn't do me too much good in that regard).
Part 1
Several weeks ago, LeeAnn invited me out to dinner, somewhat unexpectedly. I went, worried about ulterior motives, I have to admit. I was pleasantly surprised (surprised being a bit of an understatement) that her motivation was that some old baggage had been weighing on her, and she wanted to apologize for my hurt feelings last year.
That had never happened to me before, and, quite frankly, I wasn't sure how to react.
I think I said something stupid, like "you're welcome." I don't remember.
Part 2
Confession: I had sent Jennifer an email yesterday, after I found her on the website. I figured that saying "Hi" was the least I could do, right? I didn't expect anything back anyway — heck, even some of my best friends in high school never wrote back.
Result: She wrote back today. Again an understatement. Yet another startling apology, and this one after over 4 years (by my calculations — yeah, 1, 2, 3, 4 fingers). I wasn't sure what to say this time, either, but at least in writing you can think about things before you say them.
Now what? Same story as yesterday, I guess. What else is there to do but just watch and see what happens? All this doesn't really mean anything going forward, but it definitely changes my outlook on things.
Anyway, that all makes up for the past just fine, but it's time to change my future (and until I find the karma bank where I can cash this stuff in, it doesn't do me too much good in that regard).